Beyond Void

Life of a gaijin in Japan

Mid-Year Conference and Rock Climbing October 30, 2007

Filed under: Reflection — olichen @ 2:33 am

Nope, we didn’t do the two together, though it would have been interesting to rock climb with our suits and ties on.

Yesterday was Mid-Year Conference for all the ALTs and some Japanese English Teachers working in Yamanashi.  The conference was held in the Misaka Educational Training Center, the “base” school where I work at.  I had to help set-up the equipment at the center, but due to communication problems among my co-workers, there were a lot of loose ends that I had to stress about during the day of the conference.  I learned a lot yesterday, mainly on what my department really does and really has (this is after 1 year and more of working here).  This is what happens when I don’t ask the right person for relevant information.  However, I do have to thank some of my co-workers for putting up with my last-minute requests – My bucho-san, Gomi-sensei, Uno-sensei, Hayakawa-san and Sakamoto-sensei.   おつかれさまでした!

So there were a lot of glitches involved in the equipment yesterday, particularly with projectors not communicating with the computers.  Because the presenter’s were scheduled one after the other, there was not enough time to test the equipment with their files.  Then when they were ready to present (after setting up), the projector would decide not to work.  A suggestion for next year: Please allot time for the presenter’s to load their files, prepare the equipment, etc.  Also, tell the presenters to set-up early to avoid unwanted glitches.

After the conference was over, a number of us ALTs went rock (wall) climbing in a place in Isawa.  Jessica, Amanda, Marissa and Rick, Clint (Clive), Nancy, Elaine and I headed out in an entourage of four cars towards Pirania Climbing Gym.  I’ve never climbed before, but I can easily see why it can be addictive.  It’s the challenge of going up that wall and not falling, as well as the rush of anticipating your next move.   I’ll steal some pictures soon.

 

I fear October 23, 2007

Filed under: Reflection — olichen @ 1:43 am

有时候 ,想有多一点力量面对困难。这种困难不是生死。这种困难是面对障碍,面

对没真真爱过得感觉。人生是短短一站。我怕居住没有爱过的生活,没能听到孩子

笑得呻吟,没有温柔的感觉。如果有一天,在台上能真真说出我心里的话,你们会

听懂马?

 

Out of reality October 16, 2007

Filed under: Reflection — olichen @ 6:15 am

My GRE test is coming up, and I am still out of reality. When will it hit me that I have to take this test seriously? And when will I realize that some guys are unattainable?

 

A new life / A waning light October 14, 2007

Filed under: Reflection — olichen @ 1:00 pm

I’m far away from home and from the people that I love. I am far from my sister, whom I miss every day. How do distances make things stronger/makes things weaker?

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I go to work and see one of my co-workers. It has been almost three months that I haven’t seen her because her office is located in another building. I converse with her about trivial things like the weather and about work when suddenly, another girl in the office tells me that she is pregnant. My co-worker stands up and I can see the sign: a visible protrusion under her flowing dressing. And I beam with an excitement that I cannot even explain. Seeing her, radiating with the beauty of motherhood, reminds me of my sister. I gently place my hand on my co-worker’s tummy, and I feel content yet wistful. I miss my big sis, and I miss being able to be there to place my hand and witness the life that is growing in her.

But it was not only my co-worker that reminded of my sis. The wife of a friend of mine is also pregnant and although her tummy is not highly visible, you can feel her excitement and her caution towards her coming baby. I see her and see my sister again. Yet I am not really there.

As time progresses, I am finally realizing what a new life means. I never gave thought of how a baby is conceived until a mommy or daddy holds the baby in their arms. I never thought of what it entailed to have a child until it happened to someone very close to me. And I never took notice of other pregnant women because they were older than me. But now, as I am surrounded by expecting mothers, I finally see and I finally feel. A new life stirs within them, and with it comes new responsibilities and a new beginning. How trivial these things seemed before, compared to now.

However, even as I reflect on it, I cannot help but see the other side of the coin. I was shopping with my friends at a local department store today when I saw a very old lady wheeling herself around. She was slowly stroking the wheels at her side, maneuvering her chair cautiously. I moved away from her path and stared. She was frail. I cannot wonder when her last day will come. Her middle-age son walks up to her and pushes her wheelchair. I feel a relief in her as she timidly places her hand on her laps and allows her son to push her towards the exit. This woman is a waning light compared to the other lives that exist inside all these future mothers. And time continues, with each new birth and with each dying soul.

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A commitment to music October 14, 2007

Filed under: Reflection — olichen @ 12:26 pm

There are days that I need inspiration, not only to continue studying for my graduate exams but also to fuel my goal of some day influencing the music industry. Today, I found one – Mayday- Forgotten Lyrics